I’m not really laughing out loud

Or rolling on the floor laughing. I’m just saying it. I may crack a smile or chuckle a bit, but for the most part, it’s never audible.  It’s just a pleasantry. Like saying “how are you” when you really just want to keep on walking.  I hope to actually lol one of these days so this intricate and deceptive game I’ve been playing can finally end. The lies are catching up with my conscience.  And as far as rolling on the floor while laughing is concerned, that hasn’t happened either.  I mean picture it. Imagine me, in front of my computer finding something so funny and amusing that I actually launch myself onto the ground in a fit of giggles. It seems like a great ode to your sense of humour but again, I’m afraid I’ve been lying about that too. My apologies to all those I have hurt in this tireless parade of falsehoods I’ve been spreading all over facebook.